First Shot

Tis blog is named because usually when u guys read it, it is the past, its over, so it should be like cum tat has dried up and become crusty...

This is a gay blog, nothing much to hide, nothing much to write...jus my muses on this critical world, on this sad love journey of the aj circle...

Many people know how madly I fell in love with Ryan, to the day when he almost asked me to be his date till the day when I gave up cause I am beginning to feel as an irritant... I really thot I could get him out of my mind. The handphone strap that fits snugly on my phone gently reminds me of him...

Certain songs that played on my playlist reminds me of him... I tried meeting up others but its futile... I really misses you alot. Sometimes, its so bad that I feel like turning to alcohol just to induce sleeping...

Ryan, I really thot u are the one, yet when I left quietly, you did nothing...maybe u thot that without you, I will be happier, without you, I might be stronger, but without you, I am nothing....nothing at all....

Ryan Chin, I miss you alot... I miss those smses, I miss those nightly calls, I even miss those times u will scold me but I will promise you, I will be strong, I will be.... forever and ever, u will hold a special place in my heart.

Dun be surprised or be upset with me when I pretend not to know you or ignore you if we meet along the streets or Why Not.... Deep down inside my heart, how I wish I could go over and hug u and kiss you and cry in ya arms like that night but alas I will walk away....